Day 12: It Just Might Not Be About What You Do But The State In Which You Do It

Today's vegan bites include:

1.) Green tea & azuki bean vegan muffin

2.) Apple

3.) Spinach & tofu (thai leftover)

4.) Rice Dream Frozen Pie - Mint and So Delicious Butter Pecan (4 scoops)

(117.8lbs & 19.4% body fat)

I'm done counting. Outside of last night's situation, nothing out of the ordinary has been happening. I don't feel any more joy than I already did; I don't have any more energy than the plenty I already had. Then, what's the problem? I'm looking for a problem!!

My mind feels well and everything is all good - and yet, as you can see, I just can't be content with that. I can't believe that everything is all good because it just is all good but it is!

What I'm experiencing is that when my mind is well, when that's in check, what I do just flows. Eat meat, not eat meat. Workout, not workout. Call a friend, not call a friend. Take the pup for a hike, not take the pup for a hike. None of these external things - choices, demonstrations, activities - none of these displays matter. I just do whatever it is I do.

I'm really seeing that when my thoughts, speech and actions are generated from my heart and my spirit is aligned with my inner truth, challenges no longer are challenges, conflicts are no longer conflicts, issues are no longer issues. The relative ease I've experienced around taking on a vegan lifestyle has been mind-boggling to me. It's like I'm in this flow and all of this is very natural and effortless, as if this is what has always been intended to be.

But my brain is telling me that it's not supposed to be easy. This is supposed to be a real challenge and if I'm not experiencing any challenges, I'm not doing this right and something is wrong.

What?! That sounds really dumb, particularly because I actually typed it and read it back. But that's the truth. That's what's going on in my head. Why is this so easy? I'm not doing something right. It's supposed to be hard and it's supposed to suck. Why do I feel great? Why do I actually like vegan baked goods? They're supposed to be gross and lame and a "substitute" to the real thing. They're supposed to be a lesser product.

If anything, vegan baked goods are the real thing because they're made with real food, real ingredients. But what I've always thought/been told/heard/believed is that vegan products are sub-par and are what you have when you can't have the real deal. The other stuff is better and better tasting and is just plain cooler, overall. Isn't it funny though because this "other stuff" is the stuff that's actually full of refined sugar, hydrogenated oils, chemicals and dyes? See, this proves that if you're told something enough times, you believe it.